Its My Life

" Now what would you do, if the very principals that you have built your life on was shattered ? What would you do, if the core of your every belief was broken ? The very foundation that was instilled in you from tender age, threatens to pull you down. The illusion of what you thought you would become or what you thought you were blinds you from what u really are or what your life really is. How would you react to it ? Would it change you, would it scar you, or would you just stay the same. "

Yes these are the questions that twirl in my head, poisoning my mind, my mood, my thoughts. No this post isn't one of the usuall emo post shobaan comes up with, this post is just an emotional outlet to, what I would call one hell of a week. The implications of the disasters that happened in one night bare great impact in my life. Yes I'm depressed you want to know whats even worse I can't place a finger on why im depressed. Its like a splinter in ur chest. Its there but you just can't see it. If i tried to guess I'd come with a long list of reason of it. I mean being me isn't exactly a bed of roses now is it.

In 6 months time I would cross the line from being a teenager to being an adult, and when I look back at 19 years of life. I don't want to see a long list of screw up, a long list of what should have been or could have been. but if stop and look back now thats what the last 18 years of my life potrays. So you see there not much to be proud of. Whats a man's worth ? What my worth ?

Every one dreams. Some dream big, some dream small. Common sense would probably tell you the bigger the dream the harder the battle to fullfill it. My dreams aren't big but the question is do i have what it takes to make those dreams real. If we try and look at my academics the hard facts would say give up. Don't bother trying. You ain't ever going to make it

The good thing is im a pretty stuborn person and although when I look back I can't see my long list of acomplishments right now does't mean I am ready to give up. One day it will be there I hope, and to god I pray. I guess if the path to growing up was easy it would take the fun out of life.

"Only in the black of night, Can u see the stars"

+>ShObY<=

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*shouts* updattessss . Well the jobs alright pretty darn boring after sticking at it for what 8 months, Yes mother fuckers 8 months. and for one with a short attention spam and a super hyper body 8 months is a daym long time. We'll be resigning soon though, bout time we went back to being a kid and start my law degree. Yeah can you just imagine me Shobaan going to court. *laughs till he falls of the chair* . Me in neck-tie collar, nicely trimmed hair, clean shave with a small goatee, carrying my briefcase walking into court. Being the right hand man of justice. . .

Now wouldn't that be a site to see huh ? Anyway the family is good , the car has already been through its fare share of thrashing and is due for its service anytime soon. Oh yeah I broke and I'm gonna be broke for the next couple of month. How sad is that. What to do ? Now we'll have to adjust to the life of a mere broke guy. *sigh*

Oh yeah a shout out to all my peeps who've not seen in ages, miss you guys loadz.

last but not list .. one two tinggggggggg .. (smilez)

lalaallallalaaaalallaaa =p

The clock on his computer showed 7.26am. 3 months ago this time around, the person to whom this blog belongs to would probably be fast asleep. But today he is awake, He's been awake almost everyday around this time for the past 3 months. You want to know why because he HAS BEEN FREAKING WORKING. Which is what he is doing now. He would have blogged earlier had he known that his company's internet surfing proxies allowed the usage of blogspot. Because they block most of the websites like friendster and facebook i assumed that blogspot would be blocked to untill i decided to actually try. WHAADAYAAAA KNOW !!!

hello blogggiee, Hello people its been gawd knows how long since my last post hahaha, I've so much to tell but i really don't have the mood. Well I got the time but im just not in that whiney mood that I ussually am. Well just so you know im sucking up to some bloody asshole singaporean customer now who's pissed at nokia for keeping his at the Nokia authourised center for over 3 months. *sigh* the things that i do for my company. Hey being Techie support not the simplest job in the world you know. Besides having to be and expert on almost every phone nokia has come up with. We also put up with the less than patient side of customer who own nokia phones.

Hey you know how when you and a bunch of friends would be sitting at a mamak talking about the development of the country and why Malaysia never progresses, The mentality of Malaysians and how stupid some Malaysians can be *no offence*. Well now i disagree. Actually compared to the outside world Malaysians are quite smart. I mean you don't get a Malaysian customer calling nokia and having a conversation like this

shobaan : Nokia careline, this is tyler
Australian : Is this nokia ?
( I mean did't i just say NOKIIAAAAA, and he still has to ask
Shobaan : Yes sir, what can I do for you today
Australian : Nokia is shit mate, I just got my phone an 3 hours ago and its dead
i got back home and put it for charging and its still dead
nokia is bloody shit man
Shobaan : Alright sir no worries. Have you tried switching your phone on
Australian : huh your suppose to turn your phone on
Shobaan : Yes sir please hold down the power key which is located on the top part of phone
for about 5 seconds
Australian : dude the phone alive man, thanks mate your bloody brilliant

So now you know what I have to deal with everyday. In that sense i prefer getting those customer with really tough technical issue that would make you drag the call for about 2 hours just trying to identified the issue. The call is long but when your done solving the issue or getting a resolution it actually feels good.

ANYWAY here the part where i update you on what going on with my life. HONESTLY not much of and update, although working is good i feel like 45 year old man with a routine life style. I wake up, I go to work, I do my work, I come home, I watch one tree hill, I go to sleep (recently got hold of season 1,2,3) . One tree hill rocks. Anyone who wants to go against that statement can have my sisters hair dryer shuffed up your ass.

Well mommy is in Australia. just a shout out to her i miss you maaa. hahahha for 18 years and this is the first 2 weeks since you've been away. The last time you were away for this long i was 3 years old and can't remember a thing.

Yes i know this post is like super random because well basicly I'm typing out everthing that is running through my head..
neway see you people around
ohwww a shout out to all my peeps i miss you guys and i know i haven't seen you all in ages but we'll hang out soon mwah mwah mwah .. (yes feeling a tad bit bimbotic right now) haahahaa...

Bloggieee

duddeeeee'ss its been ages. hahaha yes yes i've ditched the blog for a very long time. What to do ?? working all now. Been busy laaaa. I miss all my friends waaaaaaaa. Jack hiding in subang. Gab probably hiding in the dark. Kit and dan would be dotaing somewhere. Ash would be out with sharon. Jayanthan would be out yum cha-ing. Paka would be somewhere foosing. while im usually at home sleeping early thanks to the next day of work. Yes yes shobaan has learned something called DISCIPLINE. I miss all of you wei waaaaaa. yes all my unmention people to i miss you tooo. WORK WORK WORK. Well I can't really complain work is suprisingly fun. Usually people wake up and groan " aiyoo got work today " . Me on the other hand look forward to going to work. Its actually quite fun and i like what i do. Its pretty simple though it can get a tad bit complicated and it pays pretty well. So i guess im really lucky. My colleagues are awesome. We are one havoc batch. They remind me of the FLYAZ back in form3. Well for those of you who said I probably would't last in this job. hahahah in your face its been one whole month now. *wheeee*. HAHAHAHA. Oh and the birthday is coming so i guess you all know where the first month pay is going to go. *sigh*. But nothing going to stop me from giving half of my first month salary to my mom. Thank you mommy for bringing me up good job. hahahahah oh yeah since i've started work parents been really happy. Its like they have new found hope for their long lost missing son. haahhahahaa. Life is smooth. Love it people.
Well today's Sunday so i threw my routine of my sleeping in today thus im still awake right now. So i thought i'd drop by here and whine no wait more like update hahahaaha.
A shout out to all my peeps " i misss youu guyss "

"Talent does all he can, But genius does all he needs"
+>ShObY<+

Ditch my blog for 3 weeks .. here's an update .. *WheeEEee*

HEEYYYLOOOO yes i know its been ages .. well 3 weeks to be exact.. well i've been really busy working so i've had no time to update. Well i had time but im always lazy besides that i've been busy.. im not going to type much today for i need to sleep yes working tomoro... So enjoy the pics for now..
and yess all u asshole friends of mine i miss you guys you all know who you are.. wait laa pay come out my birthday all next month.. it will be awesome.. or than again i'll do the whole shobaan quite thingie hehehehhe .. toodles

l'll start of this post with a back log of last weeks clubbing Alex's bday. So yeah it was awesome i forgot to get someone to become the photographer for the night so I only have 2 picks hahaha here they arreeee !!1

Everyone's fucking high but they sure don't look it right hehehe

Long live the alcohol haahhaha... the only thing that was missing was the weed

Yesterday was my first day of work in Urban forum in Aman Suria. Guess what after two hours of work I went up to the boss and said " boss I can't do this, Im sorry but i quit". I swear it was so boring. So So SO boring that after 3 hours of literally hanging on the phone doing nothing i could't take it anymore.. Oh well..

Came back and went to barclub. After a long long time i finally got pretty drunk. Its been ages since I've gotten drunk hahahaaaha.. but it was hell awesome...

Barclub Shoib and me. We'r just getting started =p

The alcohol *yummies* / *yuck*

Kelvin the birthday boy suprising he is still standing hehehe

Gawd knows how Zack turned up there but im glad he did for he had that extra bottle of chivas.. 5 more seconds u bastard

By the end of the night that was how drunk I was

Uncle Jack daniels with shoib and me ahha

Shoib : drink you bitch
Boris : bring it on mutha fucka

what the hell you smiling at shane ?? huh

=p

bottoms up people

Well somehow I manage to drive back all the way to Subang mind you i was so high i was only driving at 120km/h but like it felt like it was 180km/h or something hahaha.. got back to shoib's place and i ended up like puking in the toilet yes i still manage to reach the toilet in time. so out of fear of messing up the place i slept in the toilet.. hahaha... Sorry bhai i cleaned up in the morning hahah.. Than I got back to Jack place and knocked out on the bed till lik 6 in the evening. Im home now and i wana sleep .. but i've got a whole of plan's and I don't wanna FFK.. ish ish .. =p... oh well we'll see how it goes *grins* ..well tataz for now.. mwahhhhh

Stering wheels and tyres =p

Okay okay so the news is out yes I got fired. On my first week of work. Im sure everyone's already heard about it so no use trying to cover it up hahaha. On the contrary no I did't not get fired because I was doing a bad job. I got fired basicly because they wanted chinese workers and they had to many staff. I mean yeah what a reason to get fired. Just when I think Alright I've got a job. Reality comes and Kicks me in my ass. hahahha but no worries. Well getting fired was actually a blessing in disguise. Today I had this job interview in Aman Suria PJ. Big company, very corparate like world. Although my job is pretty simple as a telemarkerter I did't expect to get the job due to all the other weirdo's and high achievers that were applying for the position. You know nice aircond office. Very few co-workers. Nice enviroment. So you could imagine my suprise when I found out that I'd be starting work tomorrow. So yeah meet the new Urbanforum telemarkerter . . . . Me. Went to Ac today met up with everyone yes i miss all of you guys it feels like its been ages. for the past 6 months you all have been like my second family hahahh..I'll see you more often on my off days hopefully... haahhah... They pay is considerably better excluding my commision to my sales. The only problem is that the place is rather far from my house. So cabs are going to cost a bomb. So mommy plans to rent me a Myvi for a month since the job contract is only for one and half months...

But the way I see it she is already going to get me car in April/May so why bother renting me a car first. Why not make the down payment and get me a car now. It would actually save me money. So which bring me to my first dilema. I don't want my parent to buy me a car. I'd feel awful. I want to buy my own car with MY MONEY , MY CAR. You know the whole I'm man who wants my own responsibilities. Which brings me to my financial issues. if im going to get my own car with MY OWN MONEY (no help from parents whatsoever) than my budget would be roughly about Rm40,000 including overhalling and repairs and unaccounted cost of any future accidents *touch wood* (which means I probably would get a second hand car). Yes its a lot of money to come up with. But im confident I can. However if my parent buy me the car the budget would be doubled say RM70/80,000 therefore I'd get a new car instead of a second hand car (ofcourse this will take some convincing but hey when a lawyer marries a lawyer you get one hell of a sweet mouth son). So after much thought I decided hey Im going to buy my own car. I don't no why but yeah I just wanna do it myself kinda thing.

Which bring me to my second dilema now if you all look at me what car would you think I'd look good getting out of. Yes yes I surely would look dowright awesome if I got down a white colour BMW 3series. hahahah. WHHHAAAATT a guy can dream right *grins*. Okay jokes aside. So far I've picked 4 most suitable cars. First Proton Putra 1.8 , Satria Neo 1.6, Satria GTI 1.8, and last but not least Proton Perdana 2.0.

Right now my first choice would be the Proton Putra and the Satria GTI. Because one their powerfull for their size. IT would suite my body build ( height weight etc etc). Petrol consumption would be affordable. And see the price's are pretty okay I might even have balance left overs for modifications. My second choice would be the satria neo. yeah the car looks good but its considerably underpowered due to the new campro engines that protons are using for its production and its only 1.6. Compared to the mitsubishi engines of the Putra and GTI it is underpowered. Which would not suite my speedy driving style. However it might prompt me to drive slower. Satria Neo spare parts are also harder to get and are slightly more expensive because they are imported. Which means incase of future accident its going to cost me quite a penny. My last choice would be the Proton Perdana 2.0. Now this is a car I know everyone will agree with me that it is and awesome car. Its overpowered for a 19 year old like me to drive yes just imagine the damage I'd do with this car. On the other hand Its a big car and it is not suitable for my body build. The price would also be almost 25% more than the other 3 cars. Lets not bring up price of petrol when it comes to this car cause the cost of consuption would be digging massive holes in my pockets.
So basicly thats my dilema. Im really confused. Its confusing me to the point that I don't feel like buying a car. hahhah Nahhh kidding. A car would so complete me. Anyway I'm going to stop ratting about a car. BUT ITS GETTING ME SO WORKED UP I SWEAR. hahahahha So feel free to give me feedbacks yeah I could use it. Neway first day of work tomorrow as a telemarketer wish me luck. ohw I've got sign my contract tomoro so lets hope nothing bad happens till i put my signature on the paper cause till than they can still fire me but once that ink touches the paper.. muahahhahaah u get my drift *grins*

Its not the car, Its not the engine, Its the driver.

+>ShObY<+

First day of work =p

Can you believe it I am actually working. Shobaan is working muahahhaaa. No sarcastic comments saying I'm jobless. No more "Shobaan a spoilt brat." Thats right people Shobaan pulls his on weight now. So like I woke up so not fresh thanks to the lack of sleep from Jack's snoring. It sounds like a train on a railway road i swear. So I had of to work. Jack decides to skip for as he likes to put it "personal issues" So yeah first day of work and I was 20 minutes late. But hey nobody gave a daym since Im the new guy hehehe =p. My work colleague started telling what to do and how I should do. Seriously being a retail assistant has a lot more to do than just what you people see. Its a tough job for a low pay. I was super excited I mean for the first I got a punch card and i get to punch in for work. I was like woahhhh. So here's what I think of my job. I've got to stand on my ass from 2pm till 10pm for 6days a week helping rich people buy their clothes in Bangsar Village G2000. I've got to stand on my ass for 8 hours a day watching people come in and buy clothes which don't look good on them, worse yet the clothes they buy would look so much better if i was the one wearing them. Yeah i know thats sad. But what to do a man has got to work for his bread and butter. So yeah. Anyways thats me and my job. Ohwww i just had to chamwhore at my new work place yes yes here I'll let the pictures do the talking *wheeee*.

The brand of my jobbb !!

I just couldn't resist. I had to take some pictures

First cigarette break in the toilet.

My punch in machine. Its daym cool. I feel so jakun everytime i punch in and punch out hahhhhaahahaha =p

Here it is second floor at bangsar village 2 G2000

The expensive clothes for the rich people with would look so good on me
arrrrghhhhh =[

CLOTHES, CLOTHES AND . . . SOMEMORE CLOTHES

The storerooom with super duper lots of yes you've guessed it CLOTHES. Stock piles of them