ns to pull you down. The illusion of what you thought you would become or what you thought you were blinds you from what u really are or what your life really is. How would you react to it ? Would it change you, would it scar you, or would you just stay the same. "Yes these are the questions that twirl in my head, poisoning my mind, my mood, my thoughts. No this post isn't one of the usuall emo post shobaan comes up with, this post is just an emotional outlet to, what I would call one hell of a week. The implications of the disasters that happened in one night bare great impact in my life. Yes I'm depressed you want to know whats even worse I can't place a finger on why im depressed. Its like a splinter in ur chest. Its there but you just can't see it. If i tried to guess I'd come with a long list of reason of it. I mean being me isn't exactly a bed of roses now is it.
In 6 months time I would cross the line from being a teenager to being an adult, and when I look back at 19 years of life. I don't want to see a long list of screw up, a long list of what should have been or could have been. but if stop and look back now thats what the last 18 years of my life potrays. So you see there not much to be proud of. Whats a man's worth ? What my worth ?
Every one dreams. Some dream big, some dream small. Common sense would probably tell you the bigger the dream the harder the battle to fullfill it. My dreams aren't big but the question is do i have what it takes to make those dreams real. If we try and look at my academics the hard facts would say give up. Don't bother trying. You ain't ever going to make it
The good thing is im a pretty stuborn person and although when I look back I can't see my long list of acomplishments right now does't mean I am ready to give up. One day it will be there I hope, and to god I pray. I guess if the path to growing up was easy it would take the fun out of life.
"Only in the black of night, Can u see the stars"
+>ShObY<=
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*shouts* updattessss . Well the jobs alright pretty darn boring after sticking at it for what 8 months, Yes mother fuckers 8 months. and for one with a short attention spam and a super hyper body 8 months is a daym long time. We'll be resigning soon though, bout time we went back to being a kid and start my law degree. Yeah can you just imagine me Shobaan going to court. *laughs till he falls of the chair* . Me in neck-tie collar, nicely trimmed hair, clean shave with a small goatee, carrying my briefcase walking into court. Being the right hand man of justice. . .
Now wouldn't that be a site to see huh ? Anyway the family is good , the car has already been through its fare share of thrashing and is due for its service anytime soon. Oh yeah I broke and I'm gonna be broke for the next couple of month. How sad is that. What to do ? Now we'll have to adjust to the life of a mere broke guy. *sigh*
Oh yeah a shout out to all my peeps who've not seen in ages, miss you guys loadz.
last but not list .. one two tinggggggggg .. (smilez)
